How to explain....
Relationships aren't easy. Especially when you do things in the wrong order, like having a child before you've finished growing up yourself.
It's horrible to be in a position where somebody wants you to be something you're not and when you finally realize that they can't be that for you then you have to decide if you stay or move on.
But transitions are horrid rocky things and with my personality... well.... I can sometimes over react.
Life is in transition right now and I don't know where or how things will end up.
Yes I'll continue to blog, Protium would never forgive me if I quit :) and from the lovely comments here others would be disappointed as well.
What I need to do is pull my head out of my arse and do what needs doing. The problem is that I didn't want to do it alone. But now I realize that alone is the only way things are going to get done. So... alone it is.
But not without my blog. :) Or the wonderful people I've met in the blogosphere.
*hugs* to all my wonderful friends out there.