Monday, September 8, 2008

open forum 17

The first of the month came without acknowledgment from me. heh. Other things have as well, including my daughter's appointment to get her wisdom teeth removed. It's been rescheduled to October 9th. If I can pull my head out, we'll make it this time.

Fucking insurance is only going to cover $525 and my share is $1200. I'll just pull that straight out of my arse. FFUUUCCCKKKK!!!!!!

Open Forum- it's like open mic. You can ask me questions or talk amongst yourselves.

Think I'll go get the mail. Maybe that book I ordered will be there.

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

OK I'll start the open forum, with 2 questions.

What book are you expecting, and which book has had the greatest influence on you?


Bugger about the dental bill!!

T T Eyes said...

Dentists...always equals LOTS OF MONEY!!

They have us by the short and curlies, although in Australia we have the public health system, supposed to be for the people who cant afford to go to a 'normal' dentist. However, the system is in a great shermozzle and in Queensland my sister waited 5 years to have some work done...ugh!

Fiery said...

OzA- On the recommendation of a friend, I ordered Change Your Thinking: Overcome Stress, Anxiety, and Depression, and Improve Your Life with CBT* by Sarah Edelman.

*Cognitive Behavior Therapy

The first page of the book had a quotation on it: "I think these difficult times have helped me to understand better than before how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way and that so many things one goes around worrying about are of no importance whatsover." ~Karen Blixen

<.caustic.sarcasm.> comment deleted <./caustic.sarcasm.>

*sigh* I have a lot of work to do.

I can rationally examine my emotions, pin point them and say, "I feel like a failure as a partner and a mother", "I feel like I don't deserve to be healthy, happy or with somebody". And I know those feelings are irrational, illogical, and pretty much wrong in every sense. But I don't know how to stop feeling that way. Fingers crossed that the book helps.

The book that had the greatest positive influence on my life up until this point was Julian Jayne's book: The Origin of Consciousness in the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind. It completely destroyed any lingering belief in god and gave a very plausible explanation for the creation of "god" in history.

The book that had the greatest negative influence on my life was the Bible. It's teachings on guilt, self-sacrifice, original sin and thought crimes are issues I still struggle with to this day.

Green-Eyed Momster said...

Ask if they offer Care Credit at the dentist's office. It's a credit program where you can make payments, interest free for 6 months. That's how I paid for my gold crown. If you do it pay it off as soon as you can and you won't have to pay interest!!
Good luck with that!!

My question - Did your Mom find the backward books while dusting? LOL!! :)
And, if you have a book sale, will you please let me know?

Fiery said...

I don't know if we would qualify for the dental credit card, can't hurt to try, eh? Hadn't thought of that so thanks for the suggestion.

It appears that the backwards books went undetected. Most likely because of an ongoing policy of "don't ask, don't tell".

Will keep you apprised of the book situation. :)

Half rabbit said...

What a weird quote. In my view if you can't already see the beauty in life then you aren't taking enough pain meds... (I'm only currently on paracetamol I swear :) )

Fiery said...

Hence...the bourbon.... :)

Green-Eyed Momster said...

Trust me, if they offer it, you qualify!! I did and you should see my credit report!! Okay, maybe not!!
The interest after 6 months is really high so that's where they get you but if you can pay it off while it's interest free, you save some change. And, it's a lot easier to pull $200.00 a month out of your arse than it is $1,200.00! Trust me!! Best wishes!!

notreligion said...

Is Marcie a christian? Maybe you should ask her. I am. I think you will still be looking for something to make you happy long after Marcie is gone. Just a thought.

Richard said...

notreligion: I have been going through a bad stretch lasting a number of years, but believe I am climbing out of it. I do not believe faith has a monopoly on happiness during a struggle. Rose colored glasses can sometimes help but real vision is much better and more reliable. Some get addicted to the glasses.

That said, I believe she is indeed Xtian, as she has mentioned God (but I was politely silent).