blast from the past

Awwww look at that poor heart, all battered and bruised.

That heart wasn't born looking that way. And do you know who is responsible for it?

I am.

That's right. My heart. My responsibility.

Six months almost to the fucking day after the dreaded phone call saying, "I just want to be friends", 3.5 months after the last email, I hear from him.

And how do I feel about that? Quivery. Fluctuating between anger and sadness, regret and something else.

And I find myself wondering, what in the world is he even doing on my blog? And why respond now after all the heart broken posts in the past, why now does he choose to respond to this one?

I wonder how many times I've written about this since July 1st? Let's see....

Here
...

Ya know, I was going to go back through every post and link to each one where I had discussed this. But.... I just can't be arsed.

HA!!!!!

The one that I will find, that sums it up best is that post I did with all the music videos.....

Fuck it. I'll just repost the relevant bits here with new links since one looks to be dead.

The first music video- how I thought he felt about me.
(I used to love this song. Was my absolute favorite. Now it makes me sick and I never listen to it.)

The second music video- how I felt when he ended it.
(Listened to this song over and over and over. The angst. A perfect match.)

The third music video- the lesson I spent 6 months learning


Of all the heart broken posts I've put up, he responds now. And I don't know why. Why did this post compel him to step up and put his two cents back in the pool? I know he doesn't give two shits what anyone else on the planet thinks of him. Curious.

And now that I posted my reply to him in the comments section... now that I've written this blog post about it...

How do I feel?



YAY ME!!!!!! :)

Thought for 2009

2008 was the year of many relationship breakups for a rather startling number of fellow bloggers, myself included. (I'm sure the rest of the world did just fine.) In honor of mine and yours (or someone you know) I leave you with this thought.

"Remember, if the man was too mellheidit to value the gift of your love, then he's nae the man you thought he was. You deserve better. ~Geralyn Dawson

In fact, you deserve someone who will cherish your love and treat it like the precious gift that it is. May 2009 be the year you find that someone.

What will happen in 2012?

Tracey Treasure popped up on my open forum and asked What do you believe will happen in 2012? Anything? Do you believe it'll be our last year?

Tracey- there have been, and always will be, doom sayers that are waiting for the world to come crashing down on us. But until whatever killed the dinosaurs happens to us, the human race will continue. Regimes change, dictators are over thrown, armies march, and winds blow. But always, tomorrow is another day. We'll get through somehow. It might not be pretty. It probably won't be easy. .... oh god. I feel a song from the 80's coming on.

open forum 20

Happy New Year to everybody. Welcome to 2009.

For those new to my blog, an Open Forum is your chance to ask me personal questions, impersonal questions, impertinent questions, off topic questions.... well you get the idea.

And can you believe I forgot last month? Yeah, I didn't notice until just now either. HEH!

I promise to take better care of my blog in 2009. 8-}

Happy New Year

the new AFA Forum

**Teaser**

The new on-line Forum for the Atheist Foundation of Australia is in beta testing as I type this. Here is a foretaste of the good things to come, said to a fundy by our newest member JohnO...

"The lord is your shepherd eh? What does a shepherd do? He looks after a flock of sheep so he can fleece them and sell them for meat."

BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! *snerk*

The new AFA Forum... Coming to the internet January 8th. (or so). Hope to see you there!!!

newest book in the Left Behind series

A must have for all conspiracy buffs and those concerned by the coming economic collapse. Frankly, since America now has a black President it will be Armageddon any second now and everybody should read this book. :P

Are the end times near? Is the Rapture really just around the corner? Could Jerry Falwell and Pat Robertson possibly be right? About 1 billion people among us believe, yes, absolutely.

And that means one thing: investment opportunities!

For those who are not as expertly versed in the Book of Revelation, Ellis Weiner and Barbara Davilman, authors of the bestselling Yiddish with Dick and Jane, helpfully offer both illumination and advice: What exactly is the Rapture, anyway? How is it different from the Tribulation? Who are the Antichrist, the Four Horsemen, and the 144,000 male virgins, and what do they want? And, most important, how can I make money during the 7 years of societal breakdown before Armaggedon?

Taking the familiar form of a how-to investment guide, HOW TO PROFIT FROM THE COMING RAPTURE instructs those readers who will certainly be left behind (Jews, Catholics, Muslims, Buddhists, Hindus, less ardent Protestants, and many more) on how to exploit the inevitable demise of the world in order to make a tidy profit. Sure, the rivers and seas will run with blood, locusts will swarm, mountains will move all over the place, and famine will strike. But for the five billion of us left behind, the post-Rapture world will be a time of even more unique investment opportunities.